Monday, January 07, 2008

january thunderstorm.

It's midnight. The rain is patting on the windows and windowsills and everything else outside. There's rolling thunder accompanied by occasional lightning. It's early January, and it was 64 degrees today.

I was told that it's best to sit down and write when I'm in the mood to write something specific. Unfortunately that's never the case for me. Most of the writing that I do gets jotted down in the steno of my brain while walking to the el, riding the bus, listening to music, or some other passive activity that allows me to just think for a while. Unfortunately, I don't seem to hang onto many of these thoughts for very long, or at least they don't pop back to the forefront when I sit down in front of the computer.

It's been a busy, somewhat chaotic past month for just about everyone, I'm guessing. The holidays are always difficult because there's so much going on that we seem to lose track of the other things in our life that still need attention. Whether it's chores, personal time, work, or just relaxing a bit, it has probably been put on hold for a while.

The holidays were amazing. It was great to see everyone, and it reminded me how much I miss you all, and how I really like spending time with everyone.

As the excitement from the holidays has settled down, I've found myself falling into a bit of a strange mood lately. Sort of introspective, a little bit angry, maybe a little reclusive. I'm ok with it though. I feel like I'm still getting things done. It's tough, though, to stay motivated when the weather is so gloomy. The sun came out this afternoon for a bit and caught me completely by surprise. It feels like it has been quite a long time since we had the last full sunny day.


Cass said...

when i was driving last night on 94 i kept seeing lightning hit the sears and hancock. it was nuts and awesome.

marthamatters said...

You should get and actual steno pad. They make these tiny ones that you can carry in your pocket because I don't like to think that I'm missing out on any introspection. I'm in a weird mood too.

Caleb said...

I think a blog of Jay's random thoughts throughout the day (a la Creed's Blog) is an incredible idea. The best idea Martha has had since she told me to start wearing jorts.

Martin K. said...

Wow, sounds like a cool storm from these accounts.
January breeds weird introspective times. It's like that over on this island on the other side of the world, too.
Missing you all already. Can't wait til March!